I've had enough of you guys pushing me around. I'm tired of having to do everything on the spot. I'm tried of being yelled at. I'm tired of trying to please you all. You don't have any bloody idea of how I feel.

You think I'm some robot that can work 24/7? I have to juggle netball, chores and social activities. I barely have time for myself. All you two do is sit at home, go out with friends, have fun, use the computer and play the bloody PS3. I don't even have time to play in peace and I still have to do your chores! You don't water the bloody plants and now it's bloody dead and Mama's hard work has gone down the drain. You ask me to take away the trash, but it's your bloody job, not mine. This may be a little thing, but so what? It's still your job. I'm not gonna do it for you. I won't be bloody surprised if everyone's on your side.

Ma, please come back. I don't wanna cry anymore. I don't wanna be pushed around anymore. I don't want to be ill-treated anymore. I don't wanna be yelled at anymore. I want my freedom back. I want my life back. I don't wanna be in this state of depression anymore.

I can run away if I want to. Don't make me do it. Don't make me break down.

I don't care who reads this. I don't wanna cheer up, I don't wanna chill, because I simply can't. I don't even care if Kak Yani / Abang read this.

This is a desperate cry for help even though there's 4 days left. Someone help me. I don't wanna live in this hell of a house anymore. I don't wanna live this tough life anymore. I'm going crazy. Help.