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없음.
· Tired
· I Am The Best
· Keep Running
· Hot Hot ~
· Afraid
· Korean Music Wave
· Shut Up
· Sometimes
· 이제 그만 놀자.
· Always

"Have you ever felt so insulted that you tried to lose weight?"

Yes, yes, I have, and the feeling isn't all that great, either. It hurts so much to be looked down upon, and it only contributes to my already low self-esteem and zero confidence. I guess I'm the one to be blamed, since I don't really take care of myself. I do try, though.

I've been taking insults in since primary school, and I think it's safe to say that I'm immune to every insult directed at me. It hurts a lot, so much, that I'm just numb. I don't show any reaction, but inside, it's another story. It's like I'm never good enough as who I am now. It's not like anyone understands, anyway.

I do feel comforted when I turn to people, but the comfort doesn't last long. I just keep looking down on myself, and I really, really don't know why. Maybe, I'm not comfortable with who I am now, or maybe I'm not confident about myself or, maybe, I just cannot accept myself. It sucks.

On a somewhat brighter note, I lost 3kg, but my brother insists it's only water loss. Hmm.

On a totally brighter note, we're only left with two scenes to composite and render for our animation competition. Then, we'll just compile everything together and we're done! :)