Truth is.. I'm hurt. Deeply hurt. There's a scar on my heart that might never heal. There's so many things going on that sometimes I don't even want to think.

First off, is of course, U-Kiss. Words cannot express my full love and admiration for them but here I go.

They never asked for much, they only asked for love and support, to at least win once on music shows. They have the love and support, but I'm sad that they've not won on music shows, which was why I was extremely happy when they won that award in Taiwan. We showered them with love and concern, and they repaid us back with the same amount, if not larger. They've always shown concern over us, if we're hurt, sad. They even take prayer requests and reply us when they see the need to. It's obvious that they put a large amount of hard work in, and it's somehow disappointing when they don't get recognized for that. We understand them, they understand us. We know how hard they're working, we know when they're down and when they're happy. Some need to understand, that I'm past the obsession stage. I passed that stage so long ago, and now the boys are like family to me. Real family. U-Kiss and Kiss Me are family, and I can really feel the love coming from everyone. We smile together, we shed tears together. They feel that they're lacking, but not once have they disappointed us. We accept them for who they are, lacking or not, because they definitely deserve the love and support coming from all of us.

They say that 2011 is the year of U-Kiss. But look what's happening now? Fans are leaving, because they cannot accept the fact that Alexander & Kibum are gone. They cannot accept AJ & Hoonmin. What happened to our family that was once so strong? We were forced to break apart, forced to accept the harsh reality that two left. After two weeks, two more guys were revealed, and like it or not, they were the new members. I had a hard time accepting them too, but because I know we're family, I accepted them. We support nine, because they're all family now, whether or not they promote together.

We were disappointed, but we got over that obstacle, so that we can stand strong once again for our nine boys. But what happened today? JOFF edited our two family members out, covering their faces with texts, saying it's not obvious. Well, that hurts, because it was absolutely obvious and I hate how our family members are being treated like this. But there's nothing that we can do, it's all over now.

The tears all of us shed, the smiles we shared. Every moment with U-Kiss is memorable, good or bad. I really do hope that others can pull themselves together, even stronger than ever now, so that we can shower these nine boys with more love and support, because they need it. All of them are going through a tough time, and need us more than ever now.

Let's not fall apart, and stick together as family. We are one.