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Friday, April 29, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

My post count seem to be stagnant. I've had this blog since five years ago and it still has not reached 1000 posts. Amazing.

On Tuesday, I found out that I'm not allowed to go for the events in Malaysia. That's too bad, though, because I asked a few weeks back and I got the green light. But now, everything is messed up. Maybe I'm not meant to meet them. But there are many other chances, I believe. Well, I'm forcing myself to believe that. I'm gonna make myself happy by reminding myself that Kibum's coming on 21st May. :)

No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I work, the results are forever the same. Always failing and getting borderline passes. Maybe I should just stop trying and fail everything. Or maybe I should work even harder and pull all my hair out... to get borderline passes again. Envious of how others score well without even studying. Why can't I be naturally smart, too? Then I wouldn't have to try so hard.

Since it's the exam period... I should probably go study. If I get borderline passes... well. There's nothing left for me to say.

This is a rather negative post. Sorry.

Monday, April 25, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

I am tired.

Beyond exhausted.

And I've yet to study shit for mid-year exams.

Yeot everything.

HIATUS UNTIL END OF EXAMS.

Friday, April 22, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

Finally escaped the people and came into the room, kwahaha.

Photographer for the day, then I'll be able to borrow the DSLR for Kibum's fanmeet. Hoyeh.

Meh meh meh ~ I'm like trolling everyday and that needs to stop. Like, right now. It's bad for my own good. ):

But but... hehehehe.

Ooooo Thailand photos. /on a saving spree/

This is actually a short one... but...

I LOVE YOU, 달 사람!

Btw, Tuna, if you're reading this, I really, really like your rocket necklace. I'm not even kidding.

Saturday, April 16, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

Two years... What are two years?

In about two weeks, I feel safer with 달 사람 than I've ever been with you.

They make me feel included. They listen to me when I have something to say.

I'm not saying you've never done that. You have, but there are times that you don't.

Which is why I'm hurt and disappointed.

Truth be told, I don't think I can do this anymore.

You don't even consider me your best friend when you were the one who have been saying it.

달 사람, 3E, t-list and a handful of friends put the smile on my face nowadays.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

It's not my fault if you can't handle anything being thrown towards you.

Time isn't going to stop for you, and neither will life.

Life goes on, with its ups and downs.

There's nothing you can do to stop it.

You're trying, but not hard enough.

Monday, April 11, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

The photo above says it all.

Kibum, you are so precious.

I really, really miss you.

Thank you for making my Sunday night a wonderful one.

I love you. ;~;

달 사람 are awesome people.

We are cool people. We are people in the cool chatroom.

We speak Eli's language, the language of Thongs. :D

Goodnight everyone!

Thursday, April 07, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

So I was really disappointed today when you weren't even in the Top 10.

It was heartbreaking and my hopes were crushed.

I honestly expected you to win, with the online votes and all.

But we're not giving up.

We'll work extra hard for you, like you did for us.

Most groups get instant success because of their company or whatever.

But you're different. Very different.

You had to wait for so long, even after working so, so hard.

And we're going to help you get everything you deserve.

The recognition, the number one, that trophy.

Just hang in there a little while more, boys.

We're not going to let you down, we're not going to fail you.

Believe in us.

Wednesday, April 06, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

I don't like how things are turning out.

I really don't.

Tuesday, April 05, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

I need to set my priorities right.

I need to stay strong.

I need to pull through everything.

And I will.

Monday, April 04, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

Finally going to say something about what's going on.

If you've found out the reason(s) behind everything, why don't you make a move? I'm being stubborn here, but I'm not going to say anything because I've always been the first one to do so. I'm not going to apologize for something I didn't do. Yes, I did in the past, but not anymore, now. Time for me to stand up for myself.

I don't want to be the one taking the initiative. I can, but I don't want to. If you know that we're drifting apart because of your responsibilities, at least do something, even if it's a little. At least we can do something about this. You don't even talk to us anymore...

No, I'm not angry. I'm just upset and disappointed.

To be honest, I feel like the sources of happiness I have are the nine boys, my t-list and 3E. I'm not sure if there's anything else. I don't even know what's going on anymore.

So, take the first step, won't you? We used to be so close.

Good news is;

U-Kiss topped Mnet's voting chart, which makes up 20% of the total score.

I hope they really do win. They really deserve this.

Time for them to get some recognition for all the hard work they have put in.

Friday, April 01, 2011 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s

U-KISS IS BACK WITH 0330!

2nd on mnet, vs. Hyungjun.

So, so proud and happy for them. :')