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Thursday, February 26, 2009 | Posted by Naz | 0 comment/s
I don't feel like whoo-ing. ):

230209 :

Absent from school! Sick. ):

240209 :

Back to school! Whoos! Happy Birthday WEILING !

250209 :

Netball was... argh. I teared again. More like cried. ._. I couldn't take it. But.. aiya nvm. Lemme start from the beginning. Ran 9 rounds. I only stopped during my 5th! Improvement by 2 rounds! I normally start walking at 3rd round liao. ._. i know i weak la, no need say. then do err. what uh? Passes. then SPRINTING. ._. die. lol. then uhh, the sprint, sidestep, backpaddle. :) Then team ball work. then start the agony. take 3kg medicine ball, do pushups with them. can la. then i think is crutches. criss cross. then leg raise. then pushups. that was when i cried. i couldnt do it. i know i suck. ): i made the rest hole in push up position while i try to do one. i felt so guilty and i couldnt take the pain so i cried. lame right, ._. then stood up. "lectured" by Ezati. i sobbed more. ._. the rest go water break i stay there. yitphin take for me my waterbottle, i never ask her one. she take for me herself. thanks yitphin. then wan and hazirah talked to me. they said they were the weakest also. but they didnt give up. but i cant take it. wan said crying no use. i eventually stopped. then i joined them back. we were talked to by ezati. then she ask us if we know each other's strengths. i thought i had none. wanted to say " none, cause i suck " myself. when it came to me, i heard hanani say none. i agree with her. but i never say anything. ezati said i could defend well, but that still didnt cheer me up. then err. we do the attackers and defenders thingy. partner alia. i know she dont want me as her partner. i know, it was raining heavily sia! all wet, scared fall. supposed to be skipping, but they ask us pack up. after they dismiss us, watched a little bit of the match between Dunman Sec and Temasek JC. JC leh! omg. then went out with hanani and syazana. then came back in with syazana. saw zakirah. then we stay there and crap. then we go out to the shop. i buy icecream and kitkat. ): gotta stop eating so much. then go back school. wait with syazana. then i handsign with her. lol. (: then syazana's parents came to fetch her, so i went home. felt weak. told loraine i wanted to quit netball. then she say she tell wanjie. then wanjie sms me .

wanjie: wanjie here. let me ask
you something. why do you want to quit? dont ask me who told me that. dont
bother about how i know.


me: i cnt stand it if others suffer
cause of me.


wanjie: thats not a good reason. honestly. its a team
effort. if one person dont do the right thing, they should encourage each other
rather than letting that person suffer alone. if thats the case, the whole team
will not improve. so what if you cant do things right. so what if ppl keep
telling you you cant do it. learn, listen, think and do it over again. nvm if
youre slow, as long as youre willing to learn and try, you can do it.


me: but then later they all blame me like just now.

wanjie: they want to blame, its their problem. ppl like
them wont make it. honestly. i was a slow learner too. ppl blamed me also. but
who cares. prove them wrong. our whole team have to do 100 pushups during
training if anyone drops the ball. everyone would just do it. its the team
spirit.


me: 100?!

wanjie: yes, for each ball dropped.

me:
thats... nvm.


wanjie: no, thats not nvm. 100 just
someone drops the freaking ball... its not easy. damn tiring. youre not to quit.
well have a talk with all of you some day. coach do not allow all of you to quit
as well. dont bother about the comments. just think about how can you improve.
like get your dad to teach.


me: its amazing how you seniors never
give up on me.


wanjie: because we all believe in you all.

me: ah
nvm, i wont quit. but arent i difficult and tiring to train?


wanjie: to be honest, a
little. but we wont give up. so dont try to escape. and listen to what we say
dont let your thoughts influence you.


me: thought so.


whoo, that was long. (: wanjie's messages always damn long sia. ._. i wont give up, i must try.

lazy post about today. tmr hor. :D need do netball journal somemore. le sigh.

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