On Tuesday, I found out that I'm not allowed to go for the events in Malaysia. That's too bad, though, because I asked a few weeks back and I got the green light. But now, everything is messed up. Maybe I'm not meant to meet them. But there are many other chances, I believe. Well, I'm forcing myself to believe that. I'm gonna make myself happy by reminding myself that Kibum's coming on 21st May. :)

No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I work, the results are forever the same. Always failing and getting borderline passes. Maybe I should just stop trying and fail everything. Or maybe I should work even harder and pull all my hair out... to get borderline passes again. Envious of how others score well without even studying. Why can't I be naturally smart, too? Then I wouldn't have to try so hard.

Since it's the exam period... I should probably go study. If I get borderline passes... well. There's nothing left for me to say.

This is a rather negative post. Sorry.