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· 2012년1월1일

I'm somewhat free already! I only have 3 more papers left next week that don't really require studying so I'm celebrating a little now. I've been watching Ghost, and it's a really, really good drama! I'm only at the second episode but I'm loving it already. It's so intense and I've heard that it has a lot of plot twists so I'm looking forward to it. Not to mention that So Ji Sub is looking fine without his facial hair... and that Daniel Choi has a role in it for the first few episodes. :3

I'm going to start spending all my time catching up with all the things I've been missing out on! U-KISS, Kevriel, EMKB, reading, writing, dramas, movies, etc. It feels good to have a life again. A lot are complaining that they have nothing to do now that exams are almost over, but I beg to differ because I have a lot of interesting things to do, heh. I might look for a part-time job, but we'll see. I don't feel like working my holidays away. I just want to relax after working hard for the past few months. I'm also going to babysit the kids (Marsya, Mateen and Rayhan) every Thursday for the next two weeks or so. :D

I've been troubled for this exam period. Teachers used to say, "don't break up or get together with anyone now." And I've always been thinking, "that won't happen to me," but it did. Not with a boyfriend, but with a best friend who's almost like a brother. I don't show it in front of anyone, but I'm hurt about it. It's been more than two months and I'm wondering until when we'd be like this. I've dreamt about him twice already, and both dreams are happy ones. I can't help but think when we're going to be like that again. We used to be so happy, just fooling around and enjoying each other's company. I'm also wondering if he sees me like I see him, if I'm as important to him as he is to me. This kind of thinking really sucks but in this kind of situation, it's kind of inevitable already. People tell me to let go, that there's not only one set of friends in life. As much as I want to let go of all this pain, it's difficult because he's actually a big part of my life.

Will you please come back to me?