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없음.
· Freedom
· RIP
· Serious or just immature?
· Numb
· 1년
· 몰라요
· :)
· Fighter
· Always
· 힘들어

You know what?

I'm done. I'm done trying to get you to talk to me. I'm done trying to get you to forgive me. I'm done trying to make up for my mistakes. I'm done trying to persuade you.

I have feelings, too. I'm not going to be here forever, just to wait for you. You tell me that I take people for granted. Can't you see the tables have turned? I'm not going to wait for you. I'm not going to stay by your side whenever. You promised, I promised, we promised. You broke that promise, and you broke my heart. I don't see why I should stay, waiting for you, when you don't really give a damn for the situation we're in now. Sure, this started because of me, but I tried. I've tried to make things better. It's just you who's being stubborn.

But, I have to thank you, too.

Thank you for the memories for the past four years. I've had a blast being your best friend. I won't forget the happy times we've spent together. The late night chats, the comforting sessions, the random talks about nonsense. Thanks, for being there when no one was. Thanks, for being the best male friend I've ever had.

Thanks for making me realise that you don't really see me as someone important to you.

I actually thought you were different. I thought you'd stay with me, through thick and thin, like best friends would. I will admit, you did, for most of the time, and for that I am thankful. Do you remember we made plans to travel together with the rest of the gang when we turn 21? Do you remember joking about all of our kids forming a soccer team when we all have our own? Those were great times. And I miss those times, because it doesn't seem like they'll come back any time soon.

Seeing you today with the rest of the gang broke my heart. I miss being with you guys. Just the six of us, like old times. But I think that won't happen again. While it's sad to let you go... maybe it's for the best. I've opened up a lot more and made other good friends during the past two months. Maybe it's true what my friends have been saying. Life doesn't only have one set of friends. And maybe it's not worth waiting any longer than I already have...

Someone said you'd talk to me during prom. I hope it's true. If it isn't... I'll really let go. Promise.