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so another one is leaving the group.

at this point, i'm so used to getting shocked that it doesn't feel like much anymore. rumours of the two of them leaving spread practically everyday and it's unavoidable, but now that it has come true, i'm just neutral because i let go of my attachment to them long ago.

sure, i missed him when he was gone. sure, i trusted him more out of the two. sure, i wished he'd come back.

but now that this has happened, i don't want him back anymore.

if this was a ploy to get the media to side and sympathise with him, it's fucking pathetic because there are so many people hurt and worried about him to the point of tears. if he's leaving because of his injury, that's fine with me. his injury is pretty bad, after all. but maybe a hiatus could have solved that. that's better than leaving the group. but then his dad just had to add in the part of personal advancement and that's just greed speaking.

honestly, i think he doesn't have enough talent to open up his personal studio.

but people get what they want all the time.

now, i don't even care about the other two anymore. one is leaving, one is staying but may be leaving, i don't know. now i just care about the eight korean members who i'm pretty sure won't leave because if they do, they'll never be able to continue their careers in the korean entertainment industry.

but most of all, i worry for our leader joonmyun. he's not just exo's leader, he's the leader of exo-l too. after training for seven long hard years, and not being able to dance for one whole year during that seven years because he got severely injured, he finally made his debut with a group he can call his own. but within three years, he loses three members. one of whom was his co-leader, another one was close enough to call him 'mama'. but they've betrayed him all the same.

i don't want to see him upset but it's inevitable. i'm afraid he'll think the group he's tried to protect is falling apart, and i'm afraid he'll feel like it's his responsibility to piece them back together again. i want to tell him stop, your group is going to be just fine. your group is not falling apart, and you definitely don't have to do this alone. please rely on your seven other members. please don't do this by yourself. it's hard enough with your own problems, so don't shoulder the entire group on your own. your group you've been trying to protect is going to be just fine, so stay strong and hang in there, because it'll all be alright in the end.

i want to hug all of them, i want to tell them it'll be okay because your fans will be here for you.
your fans will always be there for you.

joonmyun, please don't do this by yourself. please let it go when you have to, please rely on your other members and don't shoulder the burden all by yourself.
minseok, please help joonmyun take care of the other kids. they listen to you most, anyway.
baekhyun, please keep lightening the atmosphere of the group. please keep them happy.
chanyeol, please be there to comfort joonmyun when he needs you. please.
jongdae, please continue being the optimistic one. please continue giving the group support.
kyungsoo, please help joonmyun when he needs you. that's all i ask.
jongin, please take care of joonmyun like you said you wanted to.
sehun, please stay strong. i know it's hard for you too, so please don't hold it in.

most of all, to all of you, please rely on each other for comfort and strength. cry it all out if you need to, but please remember that you're going to be okay. we'll help you be okay. cry all you need, but wipe those tears afterwards and stand up again. you're strong. you'll be fine. you can do this.

yixing, please stay true to your words and don't betray. i don't have much hope, but please.

exo, i love you. i will be here to protect you in every way i can. i will be here to support you with all my other fellow fans. i will be here to be with you through the dark times, and i will definitely be here to walk the flower path with you when all this blows over.

my boys, please stay strong.
i love you.
i'll protect you.